Anonymous: Hi :), i love all the old pictures of the serial killers etc. I have two questions for you: 1) What would you say is the reason for this blog? Why are you so fascinated? and 2) Who would you say is the most famous serial killer? AND (sorry, I guess this is 3) who is the most sort of 'famous' serial killer atm? x

1) The reason? It’s just my personal blog, I post whatever I find interesting, and serial killers are interesting. Serial killers are fascinating because they’re… different, they tend to be far removed from most, typically normal, subjective human experiences, and I don’t know, the more different, the more interesting.

Most famous? Um, depends where you are geographically. I’d say ironically charles manson is the most well known by name as a serial killer, despite not being one.

I don’t understand that last question? Like active serial killer? Or serial killer in the news? Again, I’m pretty sure that depends on geography.

Anonymous: I know you're not really an advice blog, but i guess i just need to say this to someone. I feel like i don't exist, do you have any idea which mental illness that would fall under? like, obviously i'm aware of my physical existence, it's really hard to explain. But i just sort of feel like i have no 'substance' thankyou so much if you can help me figure out what's going on.

It sounds like some form of dissociative disorder, probably something along the lines of depersonalisation/derealisation disorder? That’s what comes to mind at least, although I’m not entirely sure - obviously I don’t know what your symptoms are exactly. Please, if this is causing you any trouble at all, go to your doctor, they can give you a referral and you’d be able to get an accurate diagnosis and proper treatment.

Anonymous: I know you've probably been asked this before (multiple times), but what TV shows do you watch, other than Prison Break? It seems you might like Breaking Bad and Sons of Anarchy, if you don't watch them already!

I LOVE Breaking Bad. Don’t watch Sons of Anarchy, although I hear that they like to pretend the IRA is a biker gang - LOL! I love Supernatural, and Oz, and Grey’s Anatomy, and House, and South Park, and Community, and tonnes of stuff. I need to get more of a life outside of TV.

missliquordick-deactivated20121: What is on your pedophilia blog? Is isn't actual images is it, too scared to even click and have that word in my computer history.. Love your snake btw :)

Oh god, no! That blog is more an open discussion about pedophilia as a psychosexual disorder. I made it to clear up a lot of misconceptions, for example: pedophile = child molester [to be diagnosed with pedophilia you do not ever have to touch a child]. I think it’s important for people to know that a pedophile is not always a child molester, and a child molester is not always a pedophile. That blog is geared mostly towards non-offending pedophiles, as in those who have the disorder/paraphilia but have never committed a crime, and raising awareness and understanding about what it is like living with pedophilia and reducing the stigma so that people can seek treatment before the point that they ever actually act on their attraction. The majority of posts are text submissions, asks or studies.

Anonymous: How do you cope with public speaking? I'm always a complete doofus when I have to speak in public. Is it confidence in yourself and a knowledge of what you're talking about?

It’s definitely both of those things, and practice. I mean, after a certain amount of time getting up and doing it you realise that really - what’s the worst that could happen? If you forget what you were meant to say, so what? Usually you can bluff it - if you know about the topic that you’re talking about. If you know your stuff and you’re used to it, then you tend to be okay. I mean, I kind of enjoy it, I’ve been getting up in front of people from a young age and I think eventually you learn to like the nerves and the feeling you get whenever you finish and you know you did a good job.

fallingdevils: Do You Have Any Undiscovered Or Hidden Talents? If So, What? Has Any Particular Book Influenced You Or Left A Life-Changing Impact? Everyone Has A Mission In Life. What Do You Think Your Mission Is? Sorry For All The Random Questions.. Im Bored & Need Something To Do :)

Um, let me see, as in undiscovered on here? I can act pretty well. My mother is a speech and drama teacher and I’ve won awards in local festivals on several occasions, and I’ve got my grade 8 in acting. I’m also good at public speaking - again, won a few awards/cups for that. 

Any particular book, god, I don’t know… I don’t think so I’m afraid. I’d love to say yes but usually I seek out books on things I’m already passionate about so they, at most, reinforce an interest that was already there.

Mission in life… I’m going to be incredibly cliche and say help people. I want to help people, and I suppose specifically offenders and/or the mentally ill. It’s why I studied psychology, but to be honest I’d be happy to help in absolutely any capacity I can.

Anonymous: what are the main differences between a sociopath and a psychopath?

Oh god, well, that depends on who you ask or what you read. There tends to be a few main theories I’ve encountered:

- They’re two different disorder, ASPD [sociopath] and Psychopathy [Psychopath]

-They’re the same disorder but reflect different levels of ‘organisation’ and ‘impulsiveness’ in terms of behaviour, but depending on what you’re reading it will flick between the two.

-They’re the same disorder, but have different causes. Sociopath’s have a disorder based on environment. Psychopath’s have a disorder based on biology.

-There’s no difference. They’re two terms used interchangeably to refer to the same thing.

So yeah, absolutely no consensus that I can see. I think because of the lack of certainty over the differences I tend to assume the last one.

Anonymous: just wondering, why do you go to the psychologist?

I’m in treatment for an eating disorder.

Anonymous: what was it like meeting robert knepper? were you nervous? how was he? & MOST importantly, how did you not throw him to the ground and ravage him right there! :P

AMAZING!

Yes, I didn’t know how I was going to freaking speak to him, but I managed to carry a conversation with him! I met him twice, once to get crap signed, once to get the photo. First day, was a total gentleman, was asking about my tongue piercing and living in Ireland, he was lovely. The second day, not so much, as I said on that post, he told me to go and have a ‘tug’ over the photo so… um… a little bit more creepy. 

Still love him though. AND I DON’T KNOW! I’m surprised I could stand upright to be perfectly honest!

Anonymous: Are you going to any conventions this year?

Yeah, I’m going to one in May, and I think that’s it because they’re so freaking expensive. If any ridiculously awesome guests sign up for LFCC I might be tempted to go again…

Anonymous: do you like dexter? you would love him!

I’m not a fan of the show, no. In theory I should love him, but I just can’t. :/

Anonymous: I have a theory that 'normal' humans are not so different from psychopaths in the way that all humans are very capable of cruelty and other such things, no matter how big or small the reason. I feel like psychopaths are just more honest with themselves about the horrible capacities we have as humans. what do you think?

I think you’ve sort of… misunderstood the disorder.

Firstly - They’re not more honest. The diagnostic criteria actually specifies that they are dishonest. You can say that they are more ‘honest with themselves’ but the fact that they tend to live mostly double lives makes that possibility very, very slim.

They are capable of cruelty, as is everyone, but not all of them are sadists or serial killers, their cruelty may only stretches to the point that it serves them in other ways, such as getting ahead in a job. 

-but it’s not about their capacity to be cruel. It’s about their inability to empathise or feel remorse. It’s not that they’re only individuals in the world who are ever vindictive or manipulative, but they will never feel guilty over it. The majority of the population would, because it’s a natural human response - empathy and remorse for hurting others.

Their deficits aren’t entirely limited to empathy either, they have problems with forming relationships, which can cause a degree of loneliness that most probably wouldn’t be able to understand. They have issues with inhibition, with anger control, with responsibility.

Saying that Psychopathy is just someone who is honest about their capacity for cruelty is oversimplifying a severe personality disorder.

Anonymous: Which of your favorite serial killers are you most attracted to?

Richard Ramirez, he’s beautiful.